Life is the matter of choice

Hey guys!

6 months and counting since I moved to Singapore! For those fellow Singaporeans, no offense! I might say that I still prefer live in KL than in Singapore. Well, everything move very fast in here. It's like you are snapping your fingers all over the time. It just passed super damn fast. I didn't realize that it is already Sunday again! 

Recently I talk with a friend and how's life and everything. After talk with him few lines, i believe he realized that my life is not that happening. And seems monotonous, nothing to do better than work and church. And the type how i hang around with my friends are like high-school hang out type. 

In my point of view, have a happening life or not it is really relative. And for some people they might say that "if you have party every week, your life must be really happening" or "u have never joined any party?" How people define happening is terribly horribly different. For those who always go to party they will say this is their happening life and for those who doesn't, go for party is so not happening. From what i mention here, you might already think that I fall on the 2nd category. But the things that i would like to highlight here are

I've been to party before, several times with my friends during college time. For first and second time i thought it might be normal if i felt like left out because i never been into this situation. But after several times, I realized that what i did when went to club were:
-Enter the club
-Seems quite exciting now, people start do open bottle and drink
-drank few glasses 
-start to feel dizzy (i'm not good with alcohol)
-went to dance floor
-drink again
-dizzy again
-dance floor again
-sit
-sit
-brain starts to think, what the hell am i doing here?
-sit
-think again, it's so much better to sleep at home.
-sit
-drink
-dance floor
-sit
-go home. 

It always happened for so many times and the part that made me chose to not to go to club anymore is the part what the hell am i doing here? 

And i feel that i am more enjoy just to chill at bar, talk more relax, listen to music, or watch movie, dinner or lunch. That will do. 

Since the last party that i went, i made up my mind not to go to club anymore because i have hurted my body so much. I've sinned, I lied to my parents. I made them worry for me. I feel bad for myself. Perhaps, you can say that i am a hypocrite, but it's me being honest, I chose to not go for those life anymore and I deserve to make a choice of my life. So do you. 

My post here never ever meant to hurt, mock people or being hypocrite, fake, or being so spiritual person. As I have said, it just the matter of choice. There will be the point where you will really find a good reason why should not do this anymore and you should do that. :) 

I believe today I had made a great decision as I never ever regret on my decision. 

So, how do i spend my so called happening life?

In this season, I can't do anything much due to certain commitments which made me not able to spend a lil' bit extra. But I tried my best to sacrifice my sleeping time at night to hang out with my friends (after saturday service dinner, usually I and my friends went for 2nd round, I did sacrifice my time just to be with them, play, get to know each other better. Having fun. Etc. Or doing my house choir that i left for a week, play with the twin babies, watch movie, went out for dinner, etc. At least I am still able to communicate with people. I do like my job as I am able to communicate with people, talk with them, get to know more people, experience, knowing what are their passion, exchange stories, etc. It's all new things that I faced everyday in life! 

Cheers :)